A well dressed man is more attractive to me than a shirtless man with a six pack.
This, I have reblogged many times. ❤
dark hair dont care :’)
Today I realize that I cannot be happy keeping everything deep down in me and not doing anything about it. I’m on my study break for months and I have been doing nothing productive. Nothing that gives me benefits and nothing that help me in any way for self-building. Sigh. What have I done to myself? Where did I go wrong?
I often procrastinate and I am not proud of it. I guess, I’m lack of determination in doing things. I will get determine for days and just let it go due to laziness and most of all, my lack of determination.
I want to seek for help, about myself that I can’t seem to understand but who should I go? Where should I go? Who I can count on and who I can trust? Well, nobody.
It’s sad how lonely I am when I think about it. It’s like standing at the Main Street of Hong Kong, crowded with busy people and yet I still feel alone, even when people on the street are busy walking at fast rate to catch the train, bus, or the cab. I’m not sure if this is sad or pathetic but all I can think is I’m lonely.
So much of anger buried deep in me and I don’t have any idea how to just, let it go because its a “past”.
But just because its a past, it doesn’t mean that I couldn’t feel the anger anymore. It’s as though I want to forget about it in minutes, but after all the sudden, something got to remind me of the pain I had and I would burst into pool of tears without stopping.
Sometimes I just can’t decide what’s right and what’s not for me. I often think it’s because of my attitude or my heart. Or is it my head. I often make decisions, depending on others opinion and I never had the guts to decide myself. Or even have thoughts for myself to decide. I am always, always letting people interfere my mind, and then I will decide based on majorities.
I finally know why, I can’t decide on my own.
It’s because of the society. The people around me. Everyone clouded with judgments. And, somehow, people words can really affect me in every way - emotionally and mentally. And it hurts. I’m trying hard to be independent and I’m trying very hard to stand on my feet.
Dear whoever who are reading this,
You are amazing and you have a great mind. Don’t let judgments bring you down. Chin up, and be brave. Think of yourself, think of your own. And, you don’t need anyone by your side. You just need yourself. You are strong. You are powerful. Do not let people bring you down below the ground, because you’re worth it.